So i've been feeling a bit down recently.
Lately i've been going through some stuff and it's kind of affecting both my physical and mental health. I'm trying to rise above everything but it's proving very difficult....
Drawing used to be my solace when i got a bit under the weather but for the last two, maybe three years i've hardly done anything. That's because i went to university, it sapped all my passion from me and now i no longer feel like drawing; which is kind of sad really. The only problem with not drawing as much as i used to.... i'm so out of practice i find it difficult to even find a starting point when i sit and draw something, in the end i wind up so frustrated i end up doing one of three things 1) Throwing the sketchbook to one side and leaving the drawing unfinished 2) Rip it up or 3) Erase the entire thing and don't pick up a pencil for another 3 months. It's a bad habit my parter is trying to get me to break but i say it's useless to push a cart sideways. I'm also struggling to find any inspiration for new sketches, which is another thing that makes me end up quitting. I look at some of the works around on DA and it makes me want to cry sometimes because there was a time when i could have been as good as some of the people here. Thing is i no longer feel that i could reach that point, i'm so out of practice, my skills are severely lacking but like i said... i no longer have the passion or drive to try and improve myself... I sit and draw something and hope for the best really.
I am working on a new sketch, if i can get the angle right for one part of it i think it could work out well, i hope anyway. Proportions and angles are something i struggle a lot with so this may take some time but we'll see what turns out.